Writing this blog entry has been on my mind for weeks. Between the Holidays and the New Year and the fact that I just don't write enough, I have been thinking about what I should write about.
At the moment, I'm sitting outside (it's nice to live in a place where it's warm for part of January), sitting on the deck, drinking my coffee and thinking about what has recently happened and what I want to have happen in 2021 or at least some point in the very near future.
I've never really cared much about New Year's. There's always a bunch of noise about a fresh start and new beginning, like suddenly on the first day of the new year, all the bad stuff goes away and everything is clean. The thing is, I have always believed you can pick any day you want to change your life. Picking April 24th has as much effect as a date for change as January 1st. New Year's is just a calendar change that also happens to involve a couple more digits than usual.
That said, I'm not above taking the time to reflect on my life and what I need or want to change. And since y'all are such a supportive audience, I thought I'd start here.
True confession time: I'm back at my high weight again (no one is surprised). I could list off all the reasons why I stopped putting effort behind it but the ultimate truth is that I let everything get in the way. The Holidays are usually the time I stop paying close attention anyway but I made it worse this year. I own this decision. I'm not proud of it but I recognize that it's my own choice.
This also means that I have to make getting back on track my own choice. So I am. Starting January 4th, I'm starting over (again). Same plan, same goals. More commitment.
Obviously, I'd like to write more. I need to get serious about this blog. For some reason, keeping my weight loss blog was a whole lot easier than this one has been. But not just the blog. I'd really like to get serious about writing in general. I've decided to look into some writing classes to see what I can learn from them. I have so many books on writing...I should probably read some of those, too.
One of things I struggle with when I make goals like this is remembering them. That sounds silly but it's true. I'll make this goal and keep it in my head...but then I get busy at work or we're doing something else or I just stop thinking about it and it goes right out of my head. So I'm going to find somewhere to write these goals down and put them in front of my face. Writing them in a journal fails because I often forget to journal. I'm going to figure this out and have a picture ready to show you what I've done for my next blog post (deadlines help, too).
I want to do better about owning my goals and making the changes that I need or want. Hopefully, these can be the first steps.
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